Swan’s Song – From The Fertile Void!

Swan’s Song – From The Fertile Void!
March 22, 2009
 
Spring has sprung! Here in Alberta Canada, it will still be a while before the grass is riz. However with global warming on the way – we may start seeing longer summers. Gotta do the “glass half full” thing when I can!
 
I have been deep in my processes for the many weeks since my last post. I had a slight fall in Jamaica, back when we were on the cruise, and I “took on” a painful hip for a couple months. As a psychosomatic therapist it was a feast for me, as it was clear that I hadn’t done enough damage from the fall to result in such a chronic issue. Psychosomatically, the hips are in the sacral, which is the area of intuition, sensuality, sexuality and creativity. All the yummy second Chakra stuff! Also being that the pain was in the joint it was about flexibility and moving forward as well. My hip was in extreme pain anytime I tried to sit. Standing, walking and lying down were all fine.  I could do anything other than what I had to do –sit down and get to work on my business!
 

I’ve been a touring storyteller for a long time, working mostly with youth in schools and libraries. However, a few years ago I decided that I wanted to grow as a speaker and workshop facilitator for the conference and convention market and leave the storytelling for youth work behind. I am a coach and therapist so I felt that this was a good way to step into being more of me.
 
Bigger audiences –well, at least taller! This also meant bigger pay cheques. I can really use those. The life of an itinerant storyteller has not been a lucrative one and I am in my fifties. However, what is actually showing up is more storytelling work and less of the professional development work than I’ve done in years!  “The Universe” aka MMI (me, myself & I) is nicely bringing forth support for my career as a storyteller, the one I want to phase out!
 
I could see and feel that my body was responding to the challenge of growth by showing me my deeply hidden fears. There is so much I’ve had to learn and simply “become”, to step forward as someone who can engage, entertain, and educate a few thousand people at a time for an hour and a half. It has been an amazing journey to the centre of me!
 
In the last few years I have also put things in fast forward by choosing to:

• see the truth my body holds as I became a teacher of Psychosomatic Therapy from Master Hermann Mueller
• step into the fire with Satyen Raja of WarriorSage to see how willing I was to be “unreasonably happy” and open to others and my real unconditioned self
• complete level 2 in Transformational Processing with Kelly Tobey
• Be in my second year of training in Mind Clearing and now accepting clients for coaching and therapy.

With the extensive training and clearing required for the Mind Clearing Program and the Mind Body Communication of the Psychosomatic Therapy, I have been able to really see, hear, and feel the messages my amazing Self has for me. Once I addressed the core belief I was coming from, the pain released immediately. I have experienced this physical release through mind clearing several times now. I feel secure in knowing the truths these releases come from are my own, coming from acknowledging and processing how I am actually creating them in my body and mind.
So I’m back! Again surviving the depths of the fertile void and returning with something of much value – more of myself!